If it's meant to be...

I’m a big believer that everything happens for a reason, but I also think that hard work pays off. I’ve heard two different endings to this phrase, and I never quite know which one to agree with...

...It’s up to me

If you don’t know me, I’m a workaholic. I’m 16 years old, and so far I’ve chosen to spend my quarantine preparing for A levels, starting teaching two extra online classes, creating videos (for my website and on commission), writing two yoga courses, and starting a blog! I live by the idea that if you want something, it’s your duty to work towards it. There’s no point sitting around waiting for an opportunity to fall into your lap, you have to go out and make it happen. “If it’s meant to be, it’s up to me” has definitely influenced my work mindset, giving me determination and dedication to the things that are important to me, but I think it’s also had a negative effect on me. When I’m not working, or just not doing something productive, I get assaulted by a tidal wave of guilt. My inner voice tells me that there’s no way I can succeed in life if I take my foot off the accelerator. I know that voice is wrong. I know that taking a break is so important to recharge and refresh. I know because that’s what I teach and believe, but I find it so hard to practice. I get tangled up in not wanting to lose my work ethic whilst knowing that I’m prone to burnouts and need to let it be.

...It’ll be

Just sit back and let your life flow. There’s so much freedom in letting go of the reins and seeing what happens, letting the Universe provide you with what you need, when you need it. I am a believer that everything happens for a reason; Life will never give you a challenge you can’t overcome or that you don’t need, and the opportunities that are perfect for you are being diverted in your direction. I know this is true. I’m writing this blog post on my dad’s laptop; a day or two ago I was just having a break and chilling with my girlfriend, I felt so guilty and so fidgety that I wasn’t working... that evening my laptop broke. A sign is a sign, right? So at the moment I’m trying to take some time for myself. Yet my mind can’t help but wonder, what could I be getting on with? What could I be achieving? Who could I be helping? Then again, whenever I take time away, I come back to opportunities and possibilities in my inbox, with new ideas and a fresh mindset, and , most importantly, with a clear head and a full heart.

However you choose to live your life, you do you! I think I’ve got to listen to the Universe on this one, I’m going to make doubly sure I have a balance of work and play, and I encourage you to as well. Make sure there’s time in your day or your week for you to let go, to be creative, to see your friends, to nurture the child inside you.

If it's meant to be, it's up me, to let it be...